eclipsed by glory

Today would have been our 2-year anniversary.

I don't know how to embed the video but in case any of you are feeling like reminiscing with me... here it is again...

Tifferson Wedding Video

How am I doing?  Well.  Just about the same as yesterday.  The dates don't really matter all that much... I still miss him every single day that we've been apart and I allow myself to feel everything to the full extent of however I feel it... and I told someone yesterday... it's like I take a more daily-maintenance approach than a buildup/blow-up approach to my grief.

And very honestly... it feels like a lifetime ago.  I was a different person back then.  I'm a different person now.  Life has changed so much.  I really have to force myself to remember.  2 years.  Unbelievable.  

I still read my Inheritance article every few weeks.  It reminds me whenever I forget.  And I like looking at the pictures.

Anyway... I shed a little tear (or two) as one of my dearest friends shared this song with me.



How He loves

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us,
Oh! how He loves us,

Oh! how He loves us,
Oh! how He loves.

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don't have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way

how He loves us

Anderson reminds me how He loves us.  That is what I want to remember today.  However dark and heinously horrible the afflictions were... they have all been eclipsed by His glory.  I'm happy.  Very, very happy.